When the music fades
When the outside is cold
and unwelcoming,
When the winds are harsh against my flesh,
and I can’t go on anymore…

There You are.
Your Love inside my Heart,
You remind me that everything is alright,
You never let me forget that You are here
with me,
through it all.

When I’m alone and my soul cries out
When the pain is unbearable
and I can’t say a word
When no one else dares to listen
to my brokenness,
and the music can’t suffice me anymore,

There You are.
Your Love burns in my Heart,
You remind me that it’s all okay,
I can’t forget that You are here
with me,
through it all.

When the world seems too heavy,
When the words exist just to fill a void,
and when the sounds fight over the silence,
and the silence wins yet again,

There You are.
Forever with me in my heart,
Reminding me: I’m always here,
with you,
through it All.

Date Written: April 19, 2010

Tu Palabra, como Blanca Luz,

tan pura, tan buena,

 me ayuda

cuando todo se siente

tan oscuro, tan frio.

Tan Infinito, es Tu Amor.

Tan Definitivo, eres Tu Senor.

Mi Gran Protector,

el Silenciador de todas

mis ancias, mis miedos, mis angustias, mis inseguridades.

Entre nuestras transgressiones, La Buena Noticia eres Tu, Padre Santo;

que limpias todo para que sea ‘Pureza’ una vez mas.

Que Felicidad.

Gracias Senor por tener tu mano sobre mi,

por darme una vida nueva una vez mas.

Que Lindo eres, Tan Bueno; siempre tan bueno..

En mi corazon hay un fuego que nunca se apagara,                                                                                                                                          y ese fuego se enciendera siempre por Ti y para Ti,                                                                                                                                    para toda esta vida que me regalas cada dia.

Si Senor, te seguire hasta mas aya que el final.

Si Dios Padre, te amara hasta mas aya que mi corazon podra.

Si Bendito Jesus, siempre estare con Ti y nunca me allejare de Ti,                                                                                                      porque Tu Amor esta en todo lugar.

Que Belleza.                                                                                                                 

Que Felicidad.

Date written: July 17, 2010

d i s i l l u s i o n e d;

my dreams of love and life were shattered,                                                                                                                                                 more so ripped right from beneath me,                                                                                                                                                             but I have finally planted my feet firmly on the ground,                                                                                                                                  upon a Rock that will never move,                                                                                                                                                                       for I have finally realized that whether alone or not,                                                                                                                                   we must continue to walk on.

The path we walk is the one that we choose, and we must not forget that when we do so,                                                            we must walk always looking ahead, while watching each step that we take.                                                                                 Whether that path shines bright or dims away into the darkness,                                                                                                            our eyes should never stray from

the sweet moon beam and starlit entities                                    

that shine right over our lives. The amazing gift of life                                                                                         

                                        takes us on infinite journeys of the mind of the heart and of the soul,                                                          

but in the end, we never get out of it alive.                                                                                                                                                      Because of that, our gaze should be focused on the one thing that unites us all:                                                                                 Love; for it is Love that brought us into the world,                                                                                                                                         and it is Love that will lead us correctly.

P.S. I will always love You.

Date written: August 18, 2010

I take a look at my life thus far
and the crazy twists and turns
I have undergone in a matter of months
…and I cannot help but be overwhelmed with how things turned out,
…and I cannot help but keep wondering why it had to happen this way,
…and I cannot help but be extremely grateful for where I am now.

They say that Dreams really do come true,
but am I still dreaming?
Or is this reality one that I can readily embrace,
one that I can fully take on,
without being afraid of it drifting off in the wind
as a dandelion does when you make a wish upon it.

I have been foolish in my actions;
I am sorry for what I’ve done.
I have been hateful towards the ones I love;
I am sorry for what I’ve said.
I have been lost because I ignored the Light;
I am sorry for straying from the right path.
I have been selfish by placing my desires first;
I am sorry for forgetting that others matter most.

I have been given a second chance;
I am so grateful for another opportunity to be happy.
I have been lifted up by the ones that know what it means to love;
I am so grateful that they still stand by me.
I have been shown a world of forgiveness and mercy;
I am so grateful that I need not dwell on my past.

I have been granted a new life;
I am so grateful for so much and more.

When I close my eyes,
I sometimes let the darkness
sink in for a little too long,
but when life seems
to get consumed in that blackness,
I remind myself
that I have the power to open my eyes,
that I have the strength to look towards the future,
that only I can show myself the things that will take me further.

There is So Much left for me to do,
There is So Much that I have been given,
and I know that there is So Much that I can do with the gifts laid before me.

Thank You, whoever You are.

Date written: September 14, 2010

Your presence is so strong , I feel the weight of Your Love as I gaze upon these beautiful entities you have gracefully and mercifully placed before me.
“Hope which was lost, now stands renewed” as I stand on this hill gazing over the city of Your Life.

The wind whispers among the wings of butterflies.
They dance, they float, they flirt;
their colors reflect the joy you have brought to my life.
Without effort, they already embrace Your presence.

Your love is here and so am I.
I am so grateful for this chance to stand in awe before You.

“You alone are Good”
Just like the dance of the butterflies, I am trying to get closer to Your wind of Mercy; with every breeze that whisps through my soul, I feel myself shiver from the immensity of You.

“You alone are Good.”
Just like the dance of the butterflies, I am flying endlessly searching for a place of rest; with every movement of my wings, I feel myself reach You a little more.
And although another strong wind may come and change my course of flight, I know that in the end, Your Love will guide me back—back to the joy You have brought to my life.

A leaf falls, dancing gracefully on the air of your hand.

The grass, like a sea of life laid before me, undulates and rises,
dancing to the melody of the wind.

The sun shines brightly, only to hide its face behind a cloud of innocence;
and this valley of Your Life still shines regardless
if the light is hidden from my eyes–for I can always feel Your Light

dancing

in my eyes,
in my heart,
in my soul.

The Butterflies know this too, as they dance without stop.

As I look on to their dance of endless wings,
all I can think of is how I got to be this lucky;
how did I end up so blessed with your Love. .
I don’t know how it happened or when,
because I was so weak and lost before—
but all I know now is that I am so grateful;

I am so grateful because You are so Good.

I aint here to show off, I ain’t gotta pretend. Waking up, my first thought is to sin. No way to cover it up, no way to blot it out; yet all through my sin all i can seem to do is shout. Shout for victory, shout for struggle, shout cuz my two lives are too much to juggle. My heart’s made to serve, yet my head’s called to sin. Fighting a battle against myself & I cant seem to win. Sometimes I wanna be used by God, but just so I can get some credit, then my man  JC sticks to his plan and whips me back into shape, quickly telling me to forget it. See, this thing is real and sometimes I don;t even know how to feel. I really aim to get it right, but when the darkness comes to light…it’s reality. It’s how much of God ain’t really in me. It’s distractions, it’s truth of how I really didn’t learn, then back to the same situation I turn. Funny how reality ain’t real, but God is. Funny cuz he doesn’t quite fit into reality’s ordeal. He’s greater, bigger, stronger, loves longer and harder. I’m seeking to firmly find my place in him, living free in servitude, no judgements, just the king and me. Where I can’t be shaken. God’s speaks to himself through me and it’s the most beautiful thing I can see. When I speak to him myself, it’s just not the same, I’m something like a lost cause, yet Lord you keep calling my name. So I confess, the #1 sinner am I, half the time “living right” I hardly try…..but you’re embodied in my inner being & with all my thorns and weaknesses,lies, self-deceit…….I have a chance, I am the chance, I live, I breathe free; because there is a king living inside of me.

In the dark ,I stare, but at what, and where? Who can I run to, who is fit to know? Seeing nothing or seeing something, you tell me. Imagine the things in the air, things I don’t even know are there. Unsure of things in my surroundings, and even the basic  flow around me. Not trusting the “spose’ to’s and the don’t do’s”, It’s got my mind  all clouded up. But there’s one for sure, one that’s pure. It’s you my father, you my saviour, you my everything…….you, no matter where I am, or where I’ve been. Accepting and respecting, knowing and growing, failing to realize, but trying to compromise. Everyone’s caught up and tied up, lying and not caring so abrupt;……… but there’s one for sure, one that’s pure, you. We reach for the stars, trying to drive all the nice cars, all the while losing our lives for no real purpose thinking of where to run and hide, and wondering was it all really worth this?Trying to be honest and stay clean, but why does everybody have to be so mean? And all along seeking and searching for anything that’s real, anything that’ll last, and that anything is you. All that I am, all that I can be, I will be, I, I, wait…who is me?not knowing who to trust, one is all I got. That one for sure, the one that’s pure, he who is, and is to come, the Lord our God, the almighty one….it is you .

I looked at this thing called life and realized  it’s truly beautiful. See most

people go and say “LIFE IS NOT FAIR”, and it seems this way I know, but

maybe it’s because during life, changes occur. Changes are good because

they give you expereiences of things whether you like them or not and “life

is not fair” because you don’t have the choice IF change comes, nor WHEN

canges occur in your life. Most of us, if we had it our way would have no

change at all. True friends don’e betray you, don’t leave you hanging, they

support you in what you do, whether they agree or not because it’ll all work

out somehow. Also true friends help you along the way whether you want it

or not. True friends come every once in a while. Somepeople are made for

you just to hang out with, or just to do business, everybody doen’t have to

be your friend. When someone becomes your friend, a little thing called

trust enters the middle of your relationship. After trust comes love, then

love brings high emotions and expectations for well being. No matter what

you’ve been through, you don’t have to let people hurt you, or change who

you are , because with or whithout them, no matter how much you  may try

to cover it up, underneath it all, you’re still you. True friends are hard to

wean out because there are also disguised “friends”, who are not actually

friends, but there just to get into your business and leave you hanging just

to have something to do. Spectators are not congratulators, but they’re

dictators. Knowing your purpose and who you truly are, are keys to success

in this great life. See, before you can enter anything with someone else,

trust and know yourself firmly. In this way, you can be unmoveable in your

faith and who you are, so no matter who you are or what you’ve been

through, nobody can make or break the real you. And although

relationships bring compromise, you’ll understand the real you, no need

for disguise. Trials and hard situations come and go, but the real trivia is

will you holdon and hold out? Because as we know, greater is he that is in

me, than he that is in the world. Stand firm and know there’s someone

greater than you, who’s got everything in control, looking down on you

from above, just making sure you are doing the best you can, and being you

for you. Building foundations for relations is a big task, but that’s why

someone(JESUS)  loved you first, and is there to help you through if you

just praise him and walk in his way. The root word of relationships is

RELATION so be careful what you relate to, and what you get in to. So may

things can enter into your system from what you hear to waht you watch.

Even if you are not purposely watching or listening to something, things

tend to have strong effects on the body that you wouldn’t even know about.

(Romans 7:17,21) Theme songs, or commercial songs on tv you don’t

intentionally learn are probably stuck in your head. Movies you have seen

where people have reacted one way, may be in you to act that way and you

don’t mean to. Trust 7 love yourself enough to just live and be you. Make

yourself proud without being full of pride. Stand for something or fall for

anything. All in all, you gotta make it all count.

Living through love, lust, lies, betrayal, honesty, true belief, supprt, fake faces, disrtess, losing friends, gaining understanding, confusion, fun, games, and finally hurt, all at the same time…yea, I would say I WAS INSPIRED.

Because you’re my KING, I am subject to the move of your hand. What you say, I must obey. I adhere to your every command. I check with you before I do anything. I asl your permission just to be in your presence. I cherish every moment with you. I count hearing every word from you a privelege.

Because you’re my FATHER, I ask for your protection. I need your covering. Your love completes me. I look to you for advice. I want to be just like you. I admire everything you do. I listen to your stern voice. I can come to you just as I am. I know even when I don’t want you to  know something, you already know. I am precious and flawless in your eyes.

Because you’re my FRIEND, I can speak to you about anthing. I can trust you in confidence. I can expect you to remain loyal. I know you know me in and out. I can look for you to be there for me in anything. I am at your service in requests. I trust your truth to me. I hear you say the bond is never broken. I can count on you, helping to develop me.

Because you’re my GOD, I worship in spirit and in truth. I acknowledge you at all times. I know all things come from you. I thank you even when I don’t know what for. I ask you everything, in faith you are listening. I honor my relationship responsibilities. I respect that what you say overrides everything I have in mind. I believe in you, about you, and because of you. I never have to second guess about who you are. It is only you I serve, to you,I surrender with all I am. I am grateful just to speak your name and give you all of me.

THANK YOU, for everything you allow me to be. Everything you allow me to do. Everywhere you allow you to be personally and go physically. I know you’re always faithful to me. For what I do, and don’t understand. Because your character never changes. For putting me in my place, whether I agree I’m out of place or not. Because you remind me everything I am, have been, ans ever will be, depends on my relationship with you. Because w/o you I am nothing. You never mislead me. For whipping my butt when I decide I want to be boss. For being compassionate and understanding in every situation. Because your love, peace, joy, hope,wisdom, and acceptance for me is everflowing. For everything I remembered to thank you for, and everything I did not. Everything I  know you did. For not allowing me to be my own master. For being the author and finisher, the king of kings, and lord of lords, the great I sm…just for being you. Because I can go on for days with thanks. Because you taught me how to be thankful. Because you give me new reasons every second to be thankful.

He said I am the way the truth the life

Don’t think you should grab a knife

Because your sad and not glad

Doesn’t mean God would be mad

You try and try and fail again

But always remember what you can do through Him

He gives you strength He gives you courage

He is your rock and your foundation

He gave His life so you could have salvation.